Thank you for your reply, Kira. I’m doing fine now and hope to be able to help others. It isn’t your fault or your mom’s or your uncle’s. I wanted people to read my mind about something I was unable to talk about. I’m sorry you lost your uncle in that way. I knew my death would hurt my children but depression is a bitch and hard to work out of without professional help. We all have down times, going forward there will be chances for you to use your skills to help others. You can speak from a place of having experienced loss which you can turn into something positive. Take care!